Throughout my adventure in Japan, living here, struggling a bit to better express my life with more intention and feeling -- I've never felt so much!! So much of everything! I must say I've never felt worse and also wonderfully inspired, from one moment to the next, one minute to the next, .... Making a life here is quite a experience to live through. I've never felt so connected to the countryside, the beautiful places, and the people.

In Osaka, there's a lot of people, a huge amount!! They're going from one place to another, not relaxed, not smiling, very serious looking, jumping on and off the train. I can see people collapse into their own world very quickly. In the trains they sit and look like they're observing something far away, or they're sleeping, trying to catch up on their rest from all the work they do in their minds or their bodies. When I look through those eyes, that viewpoint as I'm describing, I feel separate and alone. I reach from within in that moment, connect to my higher self and connect with them in feeling. No, they may not notice I'm observing them in quiet admiration. More and more I see they are just reflecting back what I'm choosing to experience. Within I say, "Hey, look up, smile. I'm here. Connect with me." I have more to integrate. Much more!!

It's been a challenge not to react to people. I choose to just enjoy people as they are, no matter what they are being or doing. That I found a big challenge. It explores my last post, about judgment. My awareness of what I judge is extremely high, and not judging judging is kinda funny, but a reality I create.
When I feel relaxed and feel the moment happening, everything quiets, if for several moments. It's the most peace I've had in my life. I continue to increase my being present, in quiet observation.

Well, I can see how I choose to feel inside, directly shows itself immediately outside. It's quite amazing to witness, when you become aware of what you're doing. I think I'll take my newfound awareness and just feel it more, not place it back in my mind for interpretation. That causes confusion.

I wonder if whoever reads this has had a similar experience.

Recently in my life, and particularly the last several months, I have been addressing a very very powerful issue - one that has a proufound effect on my success, my connection, my confidence, my ability, everything! It's about judgment. Since recognizing that every judgment is a self-judgment in some way, I have been in amazement of the things I have judged myself and others on. The turmoil of my thoughts and to my own actions, were revealing my denial that I am responsible for certain aspects of my life. Lately, I have revisited a powerful exercise from the Avatar course about judgment. Though I haven't  released everything having to do with negative judgment, I can more easily stop the pattern before I feel myself attempting to judge something, such as an aspect of myself or others.

It's like becoming consciously aware of what I'm thinking, saying, and doing, and it feels, well, different. I feel more aware, more focused on the moment, and less in, well, judgment. Tadaaa! I also feel much more appreciative. That's another benefit. Imagine how much compassion we would have and understanding, if we would suspend our judgments and recognize, "It is what it is." I don't mean the absence of feeling or caring; and I am not talking about suspending discernment or preference. But by just feeling what is there, experiencing it, we can more easily experience 'through' something rather than around it or by pushing it away. We don't have to seperate ourselves further from an experience, but rather feel how it does or doesn't resonate with the highest expression of who we choose to be. This is an exploration I have had. Thank you for reading.

Recently I have taken a look at my life since taking the Avatar course nearly two years ago. My life has shifted beyond measure in ways I am in awe of. But honestly, there are very practical beefits everyone could probably relate to. And O'here they are:

1. I met people with similar goals.
2. I discovered I could have more choices in life.
3. I learned about myself what I blamed in others, and how to heal it.
4. I recognized the people in my life I had trouble with, as great gifts for me to learn from.
5. I forgave people in my life I once abhorred.
6. I noticed how judging others makes me feel, and I learned that I can decide NOT TO, by just DECIDING TO.
7. Trusting my feelings.
8. Laugh at myself rather than judge and punish.
9. I can take my life in a new direction (completely).
10. I can feel more appreciation for what I have created in my life, rather than judge it.
11. I can more easily handle upset and anger.
12. I decided to move to Japan.
13. I decided that marriage was alright, and I got married recently.
14. I feel closer to the person I choose to be.
15. I am more honest with myself, and with others.
16. I feel happy to be alive.
17. I let go of the things I used to never believe I could let go, such as old resentments toward my parents.
18. I feel more present and interested in people.
19. I can change my viewpoint easier, especially those viewpoints that limit what I can be and do.
20. I cooperate and help more.
21. I learned that I lived in pretense before, and am now deciding to be more real with myself and others.
22. I see a positive side of seemingly tragic or upsetting events and circumstances.
23. I can deliberately put my attention on creating lasting hapiness.
24. I have a wide world of friends that I see several times a year, and that we get to mutually support eachother and grow from the experiences.
25. I see myself everywhere in people and feel them as my reflection.

Here I am. I've just arrived here. I have a new space in which to create. It was prepared for me by the kindness of the Zaadz caretakers. Now I have a clean slate in which to build my blog with things that are of my creation and a part of me that may resonate with you or not. I appreciate this space with which to flow myself into. It's my intention to give an honest viewpoint of my feeling, whether it 'feels' good or not to me or to others. It's a choice I/we can make. I've included a photo of someone of great importance to me. Here's my wife Tomomi.